[Accidental voice post from his phone.]

[notasinglelady]

[Suddenly, a soft voice and a piano are heard.]

Child of the wilderness
Born into emptiness
Learn to be lonely
Learn to find your way in darkness

Who will be there for you
Comfort and care for you
Learn to be lonely
Learn to be your one companion

[It was hard to tell at first, but that’s definitely not a girl’s voice. The song and the piano go on until the last note is hit. Then you can hear a resigned sigh, and silence follows.]

Comments

[notasinglelady]

I didn't knew you two were friends. Sounds good to me, he's a cool guy.

I'm at home now and my dad will fall sleep any moment. Maybe another day, when he's not at home and so tired? But thanks for the offer, Omi. [It means a lot to him, honestly.]

[graceful-bombay.livejournal.com]

We met when he got on the comm!

Sure. Is he feeling better?

[notasinglelady]

He is a nice guy.

Dad's grumpy because he hates his new diet. But his health is better.

[graceful-bombay.livejournal.com]

I'm glad he's getting better, even if he'd rather have fattening food.

[notasinglelady]

Thanks, Omi. I'm not gonna lie, fattering food taste better sometimes, but it's important to not abuse it.

How are you doing?

[graceful-bombay.livejournal.com]

Bring him to Japan. He'll eat lots of fish and rice.

I'm good.

[notasinglelady]

I would love that. I like sushi, but he doesn't enjoy fish very much.

And...you and ken..?

[graceful-bombay.livejournal.com]

Well, we do cook some of it...

We're... we're better, I think...

[notasinglelady]

I know, I know, I didn't mean to offend you. Sorry.

That's good. Baby steps and all that jazz, right?

[graceful-bombay.livejournal.com]

It's okay, I was kidding.

Yeah.... I guess...

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[notasinglelady]

Ah...I'm a bit on the edge lately, I've miss the jokes because of that. My bad.

Do you want to talk about it?

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[graceful-bombay.livejournal.com]

That's okay.

You have better things to do than listen to me complain all the time.

[locked]

[notasinglelady]

Thanks.

I care Omi, otherwise I wouldn't be asking.

[locked]

[graceful-bombay.livejournal.com]

No need to thank me.

We're -- we're fine. He came back, and he's here, now... he says he loves me.

[locked]

[notasinglelady]

Love you.

Hm.

It's a scary feeling, isn't it? Sometimes.

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[graceful-bombay.livejournal.com]

I'm afraid he'll leave again, I guess.

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[notasinglelady]

I wish I could give you good advice about relationship, but I'm far away from an expert. He was afraid that you wasn't feeling the same? That's why he left the first time?

[locked]

[graceful-bombay.livejournal.com]

No... I told him before he left. He went because -- it's complicated.

[locked]

[notasinglelady]

[How is he supposed to know this things if you both hide stuff from him? :/] Perhaps he was overwhelmed.

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[graceful-bombay.livejournal.com]

[They have secret identities to maintain :/]

I think... maybe. I mean, a lot happened, with my family and everything... I understand why he wouldn't want to be with me. It's like I'm cursed.

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[notasinglelady]

[Damn those secret identities :<]

You couldn't prevent that. And I'm sure he isn't perfect either, no one is. people who really love does it in spite of our faults.

[locked]

[graceful-bombay.livejournal.com]

[If only he weren't an assassin...]

I'm just scared he'll leave again. Neither of us has ever really made a relationship work before...

[locked]

[notasinglelady]

[Yeah.]

I don't think that there's a way to not feel scared when you are in a relationship. But new things aren't always bad, it's all about trial and error.

[locked]

[graceful-bombay.livejournal.com]

No, I know. It just feels like we both have so much baggage, and if I lost him -- I don't think I can handle losing anyone else. I'd just fall apart.

[locked]

[notasinglelady]

I understand why you feel like this, but thinking only about the 'what if' wouldn't do you any good, Omi. You should enjoy the time you spend together as much as you can.